Tender Melancholy

昨天下午四點半開始我就深陷在BITM415z的報告地獄當中...
而且一困還困了超過12小時, 直到今早清晨六點才終於回到房間

果成中整個就是無奈＋生氣＋超想大喊「我放棄的啊啊啊啊淦」 =皿=
 
生氣是因為覺得為什麼一個組員偏偏重要時刻讓開刀的傷口再度裂開
導致在醫院留了一整天 而不能參與報告交出前一晚的趕工....
還有另外一個反映實在是世界無敵淦他X的遲鈍兼放空大王
老實說, 就算他堅持留整晚我和其他組原野不太想交待他工作吧...

不過半夜通宵的當下 "想就這麼算了隨便寫" 的念頭是大過於生氣的...
因為另外一位J小姐她可是不屈不撓的花了五個多小時研究Visual Basic
只差那麼一小行程式就可以順利完成了, 最後還是沒研究出來真可惜
不忍說....要是我, 我早就放棄了.... 所以我也硬撐著完成該弄完的部分

接著第一堂Statistic考試之後, 匆忙地再度殺到圖書館
把我該印的東西印完, 這樣下午三點以前才能交出報告
cover page, content page,  header/footer的排版都很順利一下就完成
剛好1點整, 要去上課之前把所有紙張放進binder裡面...
感覺冥冥之中有保佑啊... 感恩....

然後接下來.... 坐在BITM415聽課時....
不知道是因為終於度過這個學期的最大難關還是怎樣, 突然覺得....
「其實我在這堂課學到了很多......!!!」
 
心境轉變竟然如此的快www 我自己也有點不解wwww
幾小時前還在臉書上不斷亂罵人也我lol (但其實我不是真的生氣...)
反正教授、商學院也好、腦包組員也好, 我只是想發洩我熬夜有多累吧

課後我把binder交給教授, 也小小談了10分鐘有吧...
突然把我對於這堂課整體教學和課程安排的想法通通說出來了XD

以下是突然轉變後的心境.... 用英文寫我才寫得出來.... lol
 
I've come to realize that this project IS portraying a real life experience as a system analyst.
As professor Rich said,  it is important to remember how fucking hard the process were.
Of course, what you got out of this fucking-hard learning process at the end.

I mean, seriously, the students had to figure out 70% of the things required in the project ON THEIR OWN
and it really wasn't easy AT ALL. I still had no clue what some things are even though I'm done with this course.
But it's okay. I remembered all the teamwork process, all the trial/error, all the "never give up" spirits...
and how I actually took the initiative to get members to start working on the project in the very first place.
And the fact that I talked to professor about how I felt towards this course in general.
I told him that now I know what ITM is about, and whether I want to head "for" or "away" from it in the future.
I guess that I've also leaned how to speak up for myself more during the past 2~3 years.

 Good, good.

Alright guess I should go to bed soon, since I didn't sleep at all last night. 


 p.s. MAGI卡西阿里、辛賈夫婦好萌 *//)3//*
萌到大大前天＋大前天以高效率生出兩張塗鴉我很滿足wwww